ENDLESS THOUGHTS

Writhing,struggling,bursting to come alive
are thoughts trapped inside me

LIke a firefly caught in a spider web
they move about,
Praying for an escape to the outer world

They were my only friends,from birth till now
Shared my life through thick and thin

Endless nights I spent,brooding over them
Shed tears,overcome by the lava of grief......
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Thoughts about the ways I have gone through
and still to go.............

Thoughts about the offered hands
when I was caught in quagmires

Thoughts about the gifted smiles
when I had forgotten how to laugh

And again.................

The magical moments of happiness
in the company of stars and angels

The rainbow hue blown to my side
when I was in utter dismay

The unknown love sent to me
by a secret admirer

And again...................

The blooming flowers,the splashing steam
the setting sun and the spreading darkness

All these thoughts hover inside me
pleading to be free from this dark cell.

But i cant let u go my friends,
for.........hiding behind you.........are secrets
the darkest secrets..............not to be disclosed........
preying on every bit of my soul.........

You are fated to end in my grave
after this tiring journey of life

If ever there is a place called heaven(or hell?????)
I will let you free
when the chains that seal my lips
will break loose........forever